Hi.. Today is a day of mixed feelings. It was a day first of apprehension. Then one of relief.. Then it was a time of sorrow and of time to reflect on the things have have happened; on the life you've lived and of the 'friends' u think you've made... Then it was a time of deep pain and agony to learn that people who were important to you did not really care as much as you thought they did. It was time of realization. Of knowing that it is not always that ppl who u think are important think the same way about you. Times change, people change, priorities change, relationships change..... It hurts.
But sorrow and pain are a part of life. Maybe they are what is life... Is it not that sorrow and pain are the truth, the reality? After all beauty, joy and happiness are but things that come and go in fleeting seconds.. But sorrow and pain... That hole in your heart is something that will remain for a long, long time. The pain u might not notice for a few hours when you are happy (just like u don't notice the hurt when you are on pain killers...) But it is there.. It is the reality below all the smiles and laughters and joy and happiness......
Sigh........ Sometimes I wish I was not. But I wish, and therefore I am. But what am I? What is my reason for being? But asking mean believing and believing means that it is.........................
Jaideep....
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